lived in FT.SMITH ARKANSAS most of my life i lived in buffalo vally oklahoma alfalfa oklahoma in a shed w/trailer attached to it also at 13 years of age i have had it rough through all the pain disstrust males has ben the disloyaltist @ 12-13 i was raped by an un wanted uncle 13 tryed 2 commit suicide 'survived' at age 13 left my mom went 2 live with dad. dad lost me in 13 years old 2 dhs i lived through group homes and foster homes i went 2 lv: f lockdown facility there i was raped continuingly next i went 2 lv: d facility for good behavior
now i live in north carolina and singing and poetry my dad died not too long ago in the house on may 30th of 08 R.I.P John Allan Crowell IM NICE EASY GOING MAD AT SOME AND SWEET 2 OTHRS
dont leave me for im the one
dont leave me for i am done
dont leave me for i was allwayz around
dont leave me for you turn my frown up side down
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shadow is a personality
shadow is always there to torment me
shadow makes me live in fear
shadow makes me cry out black dark tears
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quit trying to die because you have no one
i try becouse i never was alive
quit playing games with my heart and mind
i wont because i love torture
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love hurts all so deep
love hurts and it confides in me
as the love hurts me
the darkness sets for the tears of blood carys me down
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