Well not much has changed since my last post in 2008 expect i tried again with love should of seen everything coming but i guess i was blindsided with all the stress lately and the happy moments with the birth of my son jack in 2010 probly going to put up a few poems soon it helps to get things out of your mind and on paper... you know what i mean
It's been hours now just laying in bed
Almost time to get up for work but only your in my head
I'm laughing at myself for wishing for the same fantasy
Of you finally choosing you really want to be with me
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i dont know why i try
i have no chance with her
everytime i try to tell her
she either doesnt want to listen or ignores
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I love to cause myself physical pain
the pain i feel overrides my brain
i forget the pain in my heart
the pain that slowly rips me apart
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as we layed in our beds and talked about things to come
a feeling of love and happiness would fill up our hearts
time would stand still as we hold each other tight
tears would slowly form in each others eyes but we would not cry
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a old couple walks down the street in front of me
a smile is on each of their faces as they hold hands and walk slowly
I watched until they disappear into the distance
thinking to myself must be wonderful not to be lonely
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