I resolve to one day remember what I memorize
I resolve to one day make you as disturbed as I
        
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        1. 
   breath scatters in air
   smoke puffing cold atmosphere
   sun lies to the world
        
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        particles of dust
float in the light.
spects suspended 
in thin air.
        
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        Another click on the murder machine, 
but more of an inside death.
Illusions once so clean, 
fade away to dellusions without breath.
        
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        swirling feeling
floating in a sea of spontaneity
reflections of insides land so uncertainly
flesh presented in a maner
        
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        broken color pigment
underneath my fingernail
peach opening up
to spill out a soft shade of pink
        
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        I am suspended amidst the chaotic 
disassembling of paraplegic machines
Terminally doomed and forever withering into stone.
        
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        sprinkling flecks of metal
scraps shooting in the white of my eyes
coated orbs made to reflect
how you truly are in this world
        
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        i scream out for you
my heart is the only thing
that tares my vocal chords
more then my mind
        
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        hopeless integrity 
swallowed by memories
giving to plague and lets
feed on the flesh of a proper society
        
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        a man lay paralyzed on a lab table
unzipped from head to lower back
i look inside
his brain is a modem
        
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        lay your head on my chest.
listen to the forever crashing sea
of my beating heart. HEAVEN.
the warmth of your cheek.
        
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        i cant explain this feeling
that has planted itself inside me
and presists to grow.
not careing
        
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        i feel splintered.
breaking off in
a million pieces.
dont even bother asking,
        
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        stumble upon
the broken glass
of the image
i have shattered.
        
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        i wont be
restrained by you.
your strings will never 
bound me.
        
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        i feel you
tugging at my shirt
to pull yourself up.
blood stains your hands
        
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                    20 Minutes In Heaven
                    
                    20 minute walk
the ground is
covered with
fluffy clouds.
heaven on earth.
avenged sevenfold
plays in my head.
amplified by
my headphones.
this day makes me
think of you
rolling with me
in the snow.
play fighting
in fluffy pillows.
a litte piece of heaven.
not cold
warm from you
or the way 
you make me feel? 
does it matter? 
comatose
i'll never wake up without
an overdose
of you.
lets head inside
and dry off together
under a big blanket, 
siping coco.
we lay togeter
all night.
watching movies.
everything from
fear and loathing in las vegas
to all three evil dead's
life seems good
lets make it last.
this thought of you
makes this walk
last forever.
                

 
                    