Most of the time, I enjoy writing. My problem is that I get frustrated easily, especially if I can't articulate what I'm feeling.
I guess that's the way I write - not really to deliver a specific message, but to try to convey the feeling or the image that was with me at the time.
Why do I write that way? Well, I guess I believe that we're all islands - I've never been sure that our eyes all see the same things, that apples taste the same to everyone, or if blue doesn't look orange to the rest of the population. Emotions, feelings, thoughts, beliefs - all that sort of stuff is on another magnitude of complexity altogether, so what are the odds that anyone truly understands anyone else?
The way I see it, if what I write makes you feel something, then I'm truly starting to communicate. And if by some fluke you manage to share the exact frame of mind I was in at the time I was writing, well, that's just about as close to real communication that two people can get. And that seems worthwhile to me.
Women walking in the park
'neath branches drenched in light
summer dresses, low cut tops
and smiles that invite
...
Surge through the black,
like a ragged flood of wind
The past is at your back,
You don't notice it begin.
...
If destiny is manifest
and fate is set in stone
then nothing that you'll ever do
is down to you alone
...
Dragging a ragged cloud of changed addresses and broken trust
Stumbling away from forgettable months
Defensively clinging to the name of a ghost
That stares accusingly from mirrors -
...