make one up.
'The real meditation is... the meditation on one's identity. Ah, voilà une chose! ! You try it. You try finding out why you're you and not somebody else. And who in the blazes are you anyhow? Ah, voilà une chose! '- Ezra Pound
it’s to my own face
I hold the phone like a nine-inch knife,
quietly shaking/hesitating,
because
...
it’s one of those monumental (nigh impossible) tasks;
one of Hercules’ labors.
tougher still than those age old questions:
what is love?
...
it’s a stupid kind of loneliness.
an intentional loneliness.
a stupid kind of intentional, confidently optimistic loneliness.
the loneliness of a browneyed boy
...
into her perfection I will plunge
(with naught but a flame,
and my indefatigable tongue.
then I’ll spin her spirit like a spider
...
a friend of mine
asked me what my dream girl would look like.
well, Mel,
...