Activities of Jack Otterberg

"Shall we stick by each other as long as we live? "— Walt Whitman, Song of the Open Road


Prologue
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For Robert Anderson; In Memoriam


you died on a
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I dream the dreams that can't be dreamed. the fog sniffs the road I walk on, as I peek my eyes through its thick gray body, past Knoll down to Q Street, where,
if my phone says I squint hard enough, I can see Lamar's Donuts. the urban crawl of cement rooftops scatters below the chain-linked sky, and in this life, I find it unsuitable for dreaming.

though in another, I may have been a newspaper boy hollering on street edges, poking holes in the air with my yellow rotten teeth, my poor man's gray-fabric cap slightly bending to the left. I can see it— I have eyes like porcelain, dead and pretty. the musky scent of smoke swells the air, which I then didn't think much of, but now it throws me into a whirl with how warm this mutated February day is.
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open your eyes.
it's dark here. nighttime. Neruda said the stars shiver,
so they're shivering here.
a "watch for deer" sign wags in the wind—.
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I'm thinking we don't ask to be born
in this game.
the snowflakes flicker on your hair, and
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time comes to you so rudely—
you wake up and find out you didn't wake up.
just here, in another world, the ethereal
glow of white light
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I walked out past Lamar's Donuts,
holding my hands together in my
sweatshirt pocket, breath frothing
in the February air. walking as if dead,
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you texted me a lot— about
sadness and other things—
I wrote a poem to soothe yours,
or to attempt such a feat.
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the ambulance howls and honks
its red voice down 17th,
past Knoll's polished brick
and Lamar's glowing open sign
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Bob:
I've gone off to Arizona,
where the arid plains stretch and yawn
under a dusty air,
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