Heart of Ice Die Die Die Biography

Well, if u've read any of poetry u can tell that i'm clinically depressed and probably should be medicated.... oh well. no need to involve doctors right? who likes them anyways? i probably could be considered bi polar as well and probably should be medicated for that as well. but, once again, no one likes doctors. filthy lablers. i'm just a girl trying to live to see tomorrow and keep putting on a fake smile in the morning for the world around me to see. don't drown.

I've never complimented myself.

I HATE MYSELF

I don't know what PERFECT means.

Who are you and why are you reading my profile?

You may never understand

ME.

I live for writing.

My life is music.

My family

is the only reason I'm still alive.

In my book,

friends are family.

So don't screw them over.

I trust hard,

love easily.

My trust was broken long ago,

I'll never recover.

My dad isn't in the picture.

My step-dad,

...

bi-polar

is the word to describe him.

My momma tries,

but she's tired.

I'm the oldest of eight.

Matthew,

Dylan, (not my mom's)

Dylan, (not my mom's, yes, two Dylan's)

Ryan, not my mom's,

Mitchell, not my sperm doner's,

Fara, not my mom's.

Rhyanna, not my sperm doner's.

I consider most of my friends

my brothers or sisters.

I'll always be there for you

if you decide you need me there.

I'd die for a complete stranger.

I would bear your pain

and never let you feel a thing if I could.

I hate to see other's hurt.

It hurts me to HATE.

I AM EMO!

I've been on the knife since I was eleven.

I'll be fourteen in October.

Don't call me a kid,

because I was never a child.

I grew up in the ghetto,

life was hard,

it still is,

and I regret nothing.

I will never change for another person again.

Suicide

is only the beginning.

I've seen the fires of hell,

and I'll go back again

for my family.

I hate America.

I'm anti-establishment.

I was raised by hippiez.

Don't hate man!

The term 'WEIRD' is and

UNDERSTATEMENT.

I'm not your standard

TEENAGE BARBIE DOLL.

I love colorz!

I love smilez!

I love the letter z!

I don't know what LOVE

is anymore.

But I'm willing to love you!

I will never ever be

NORMAL!

I don't want to hurt anymore,

but I'll suffer through.

I sound doom and gloom,

but really,

that's just my split personality

talking to you!

I have mini warz in my head

with myself!

I have multiple personalities...

BEWARE!

I dyed my hair

PURPLE!

And I'm gunna do it again...

as soon as I bleach my hair

without frying it all out.

I have my cartilidge pierced

and my bottomz pierced.

I'm going to get another set

on my bottomz next.

I LOVE ALL THINGZ TATTOO AND PIERCING!

I'm easily irritated,

I get hurt easy.

I've been called every name in the book.

So,

if you want to try it.

Go for it.

Nothing can be worse

than where I've been.

So F*CK the world.

I love people, J

but I HATE them

even more!

I love people watching.

It's a hobby.

Like right now I'm watching you

through your window

and I'd just like to say:

THAT'S DISGUSTING!

Just kidding!

That's totally normal at your age!

JOKE!

Or am I?

I've become bored

with the normal cutz

so I've taken to carving wordz

into my skin.

So far

I've done:

ALONE

on my left thigh

right in the middle.

Hate Me

on my left thigh

on the inner part.

Please?

on my right hip

just above my jeanz.

Kill Me

right under where

my bikini ridez.

And a lil' heart

on my right ankle.

Above where Kill Me used to be it says I♥ U

That's all I've done so far.

I do a lot of babysitting,

and I love little kidz

and babiez!

Tommorrow I get to see my baby Olivia!

Well,

she's not technically mine.

But sometimez,

it feelz that way.

I haven't seen her since

the last week of school.

I AM

EMO

A SISTER

A FRIEND

A MOMMY

(to some)

MISUNDERSTOOD

BEAUTIFUL

UGLY

CONTRADICTORY

INSANE

CU-RAAAZY!

COMPLICATED

HURT

WEIRD

WACKY

A WINTERGIRL

DEATH'S LITTLE MESSENGER GIRL

AND ALL VARIATIONZ

OF THE COLOR

...

yellow!

(which is why itz pink)

A PROVERB

A?

CONFUSING

A SQUIRREL

ANOREXIC

ABUSED

THE CENTER OF EVERY RUMOR

I AM

...

(wait for it)

...

(any minute now)

...

(dramatic pause)

...

ME!