i am a 31yr old women, i'm currently in rehab getting help for drugs & alchol & the other mental problems i have, one of those is self harm, i love the colour red
i have 3 bro's & 3 sis's all older, mom/dad devorced, good upbringing but childhood traurmas
every day is a constant battle
Devil/Angel
win/loose
self will is no longer an option
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as i look out the window
i see the sun rise
before my very eyes
i feel its warmth & power upon my face
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what is the meaning of life
what does it hold for me
is it worth the heart ache
the pain
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I often ask myself
what is wrong with this world?
good people get murdered
why?
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