chris argumenti

red is for the blood all the times ive bled
black is for my dyeing heart
blue is for the sadness and when i wish that im dead
and white is for the nothingness that ive held from the start
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i wish i could be happy at least for a day
but in this moment my feelings decay
im binded in chains of shame
then everyone seems to give me the blame
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sullen and obscene i stand before the world
watching as the tragidies unfurl
now the memories of them are my worst fear
and my life is summed up by a single tear
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destroy all with the sweep of an eye
crush your soul and make it mine
kiss you on the cheek and tell you that i love you
break up and say im through
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see my heart and all its sores
you steal mine i'll borrow yours
now crush me kill me erase me
maim me burn me degrade me
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suicidal blood runs through suicidal veins
and in the end only the stain remains
the stain of faded glory and forgotten memories the stain of endless pain and suicidal tendencies
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something black
some disease
burns its way
inside of me
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These Emotions were doubted
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Breathe the words the words of the lord
That you were too terrified to ever speak
And I will inhale them into my mind
And spit them back at your feet
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i shouldnt worry
i shouldnt cry
i shouldnt need
to have you at my side
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i wasnt enough to get by
and i wasnt enough to figure out that love is a lie
i wasnt enough to show my feelings
and i wasnt enough to stop my heart from bleeding
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none of the pills have an effect anymore
for the eyes remain open, bloodshot, and sore
im no longer able to sleep, no longer able to dream
no longer able to feel, no longer able to scream
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no one knows what it takes just to be me
they dont know what its like to look into a mirror and hate what they see
no one knows what it takes to put up with all of their taunts
they dont know how bad pain haunts
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i am what no one wants
and i am who no one loves and everyone taunts
i am what no one needs
and i am hate and everything that it breeds
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i wish all of my pain would go away
and i wish that i was'nt born this way
i wish that all of this was'nt real
even more i wish someone knew just how i feel
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stasis in dark
faces of blue
forget me
and i'll forget you too
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