cassie slaughter

Here I am
A lonely jail bird
Falling apart
At every word
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Depression is darkness
Threatening your life
It tricks you
Into thinking of your strife
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If only you could see
Through these broken eyes of mine
What I have been through
The trauma and the pain
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I thought about you today
And I wondered to myself
How we got this far
Was it something I did?
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I did not ask for a life of pain
I did not ask for a life full of shame
I did not ask to be abused growing up
I did not ask for this dead girl to show up
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How do you mend a broken heart
That is bleeding so badly
That it seems like the wounds will never heal?
It's hard to say
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You look at me
And begin to wonder
Why my soul
Seems so dark and cold
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Who was I to put you through so much pain?
Who was I to push you away?
Who was I to put the blame on you?
I have put you through hell
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I need someone here
To listen to me
I need someone near
So they can hear my cry
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My life is uncertain
And everything in it seems blurred
It's like a Mir-a-go-round
That never stops
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There is a voice here
There is a voice there
There are voices everywhere
No matter how fast I run
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I feel so lost
And confused at times
Is this what you had in mind
When I said to you
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As I lay here in bed
With darkness all around me
I begin to have flash backs
As my past surrounds me
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Jesus when you call my name
I will say here am I
For anything you ask of me
I will obey
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'Who am I? '
You ask
Well...
I'm me
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My heart is set on you Jesus
But my mind is stuck in the past
I feel so lost and confused
What happened to that fire Jesus?
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here I am
Looking back
At all the pain
Of my past
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What is this feeling
That seems to be taking over me?
This feeling of pain and suffering
It feels as if
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my life has been,
so full of pain.
my heart broken,
in so many ways.
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as I sit here alone
the pain from my past
begins to creep up on me ever so slowly
and I begin to wonder
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