Should I sleep
Why sleep when you know that you will only wake
Wake to another day of disappointment
I am itchy in this skin
        
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        Long nails tare that flesh
Bleed me a new color
I feel the pain in my face
        
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        The memory planted in me
Like vines of poison IV
It coils around all of me
The heart of aching dreams
        
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        Sit on your thrown 
High above the world
Stare down at the beasts that worship you
Play the sympathetic one
        
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        My wings flutter and its blocking my flight
The  wind howls 
Its calling me
I see them all flying in the breeze
        
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        Her leaves can not crumble 
But the earth is telling her to tremble
She can not listen 
And will not hear
        
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        Mind boils over With the haunts of memories 
Memories that creep 
Memories that sleep 
Trampling me down with each Thought I think
        
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                    Should I Sleep
                    
                    Should I sleep
Why sleep when you know that you will only wake
Wake to another day of disappointment
I am itchy in this skin
There are no scares but I can see them, 
I can see the marks of past mutilation. 
I yearn for death again.
This soul is sinking deeper in
This skin is growing hard
A shell that can not be cracked
I want to scratch at it
I want to satisfy the demon inside
(I can smell the blood and it smells so sweet) 
She calls
Singing like a siren 
But I will try to hold my ears
She can not get me here
And sleep is not satisfying 
Sleep only brings more illusion to my reality
More want to my ever growing yearns 
If I hold my breath will it stop
Sink deep into the water and watch the blood red bubbles as I fall deeper into the void 
Will I slip away or will only a carcass remain 
No soul inside 
Body is all 
So what is my complication
I am to deep in it 
Sinking in its sand
No hand to grab me 
(stop your struggling and let it swallow you whole)  
Whispers from inside making there way to the surface
Springing there letters on my tongue
Bouncing in my mouth 
Eyes must be blood red by now
Staring past the shallow nick nacks
(Burn them all) 
A fleshy confession
An only human mistake.
                

 
                    