I stand
at the edge of a vast, unreachable ocean,
longing for the shore that holds my heart,
but no matter how far I stretch my hands,
...
I wither like a flower under a relentless sun,
each glance a scorch that drains my bud.
If your purpose is to rend me from this world,
let the final curtain fall swiftly,
...
Along the shore
I plant seeds
roots stretching unseen
threads searching for the soil
...
It asked not for light,
nor to tower toward the sky—
just earth for its roots.
...
I am a candle burning steady
though the wax melts unevenly
longing for a hand that steadies the flame
without being asked
...
I am a sinking ship with sails still raised
pretending the water isn't rising past my ribs
I drift carefully, afraid that reaching for the shore
...
By thread and fold, by stitch and seam,
This blanket holds my every dream
Let it warm the one I love,
With hush of stars and light above
...
If you must sail,
then go
but carry my weather in your chest.
...
I Stand
I stand
at the edge of a vast, unreachable ocean,
longing for the shore that holds my heart,
but no matter how far I stretch my hands,
the waves
never
return my touch.
The stars I've pinned my hopes to
hang just beyond my grasp,
and the more I yearn,
the more the sky seems to mock me.
If I dared to follow the currents,
to let the tide carry me closer,
I would be branded a shadow in the daylight,
a storm where none is wanted.
I send my messages like whispers
on the wind,
but they drift away,
unanswered, as time twists my patience into knots.
And yet, just when I falter,
when my soul begins to crack,
they slip through my fingers
like sand—so easily.
All the while, a nameless fear festers,
gnawing at my core,
that should another set foot on that shore,
they will be met with open arms,
while I remain the one
the sun refuses to rise for.