Activities of amelia cavazos

I cannot get you out of my mind. I think of you all of the time. Im always just wondering if you are okay. Then wondering if I should stay away. I know that I caused you a lot of pain. Yet it is all I can do to stay sane. I am leaving you messages that you can not read because you have deactivated your accounts and you left me. I probably deserved that and I probably deserve more. I truly understand if you choose not to speak to me anymore. I just wish I could tell you how I feel, but I cant cause you are gone. You needed the time to heal. Which leaves me to believe that I should leave you alone. I don't know how you will react to all this love I have shown. Since you have been gone I have had a lot of time to think. A lot of time to dwell. A lot of words to speak. I am sorry if I made you feel any less then divine. You mean the world to me. I just cannot get you out of my mind
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My smile is gone, its just a shell of what it once was.