I was born 3th of July 1981 in Bakersfield California USA. I suffered abuse, illness, and neglect the first nine years of my life and survived. I learned to cope by writing, and helping others who suffered similar situations as I did. I also joined the Goth community back in 1989, I finally felt I belonged. My mother whom helped me to become the person I am today, fought long and hard to become a better person so she could raise me and my brother. My father did his best too, after five years he final found a beautiful woman and married her. I lost my mother on 5th of December 2014 six days before her 58th birthday from cancer. She was my best friend and confidant. I am a strong person even though I have lost a lot of loved ones over just a span of 33 years. I also got brain surgery on 15th of January 2010, called [DBS] Deep Brain Stimulator for a condition I suffer from called Dystonia, it is a rare movement disorder. I am now living on my own with my cat Sassy Nanny Pooh Shelton or you can call her Boo.
I feel you crumbling in my arms
like a porcelain heart down
to the girth you fell so hard.
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Until it happens to you
you won't know it won't be real.
Just listen and see the truth,
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Fear can make you stronger or weaker
it's up to you.
I learned, it's okay to not always be okay.
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She's got diamonds in her eyes,
she glistens and shines.
Through the night I don't
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Love use to be my friend,
it use to hold me kiss me,
and it kept me safe.
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