Is it My fault? 
Did i truly screw up? 
Did i do it alone? 
Im not perfect
        
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        Hes been waiting for an hour
He goes upstairs
The bedroom door is locked
He knocks many times
        
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        Im tired of lying to myself
I know i cant be loved
I want to have a guy
That will be honest
        
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well im a 16 year old girl. I am currently a lost mind. I have been writing poems since my father died 4 years ago. I write alot of suicidal poems because he had done that. I am very outgoing and my passion for writing in unberrable. I am just looking for a life that i can be safe in. I dont get along with my mom. I dont live with her anymore. I wont go back to her. well you can message me if you would like.)
                    Im Sorry Mom
                    
                    Is it My fault? 
Did i truly screw up? 
Did i do it alone? 
Im not perfect
I wont be
Im tired of you
you dont help me
I wanted a mom
that would care
I guess thats to much to ask
you can send cards
But you cant call
truly
is it my fault? 
How can i live? 
Knowing you gave up
Knowing there is no relationship
I want my mom
you dont understand
you never did
but you choose not to listen
here igo 
im moving on
i needed you 
but im not having anymore hope for us
my heart is locked up
but im letting go now 
Im sorry mom
im going to live my life
i dont want the pain anymore
Im scared on the inside
so are you
I will always be your daughter
I know you wish you could call me your daughter
im sorry
I love you
No more put downs
                

 
                    